A lot of things are gonna change in my life, wether for the better or not i'm yet to see... Stuck in one of those little ruts that I need to get out of. When I come back from Liverpool, I will be making a lot of changes to try and better myself as a person. I will have my health checks, get my mental state into a better place and try and see where everything else fits in.
Change is never a good thing, rather, it can be quite disconcerting when you have been so used to a specific situation, surrounded yourself with specific people and then in one night, everything goes the other way and you no longer know where to go from there.
I am a strong person, I always have been but sometimes, things hit hard and make us fall down, make us completely reassess everything we valued previously. Make us wonder why we fought so hard for something that was never to be treasured in the first place.
The reason for us doing so will always be the same. To others on the outside looking in, what we value or treasure may be simple or unimportant to them, may even be a little out there, but to us, we choose to treasure and value the things we do because to us, they hold all our dreams, our love and our wishes within them. A container with everything we dream of, all our hopes and desires, carelessly left to fall and shatter... All in one night.
What can we do when this situation hits us? All we CAN do as people is pick ourselves up, and walk into the sunset without dusting ourselves down. Why would one dust themselves down when that dust on every inch of their being shows the whole world how they fell and managed to stand again, despite everything falling down on them?
We can all be strong and we can all be loved, we all deserve that much. But on the times that weakness takes us over, do not be afraid nor ashamed to look at those who are holding you up while your moment of weakness ensnares you. They are the ones who truly love you.
Thank you for your patience in reading this. To those who care, you have my eternal undying love. To those who don't, let this be my message to you to let you know that nothing you do or say will keep me down. I was born to be strong and I will not falter now.
Take care everyone and see you soon.
Love, Jen xx
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